Hi everyone! Time for a little bit of an update for those of you who have been following along on the Baby L journey so far. For those that don’t know, Ryan and I have been trying to grow our family for a few years now. Included in that has been surgery, countless IUIs, and a miscarriage in May earlier this year.

 

To be honest, I didn’t handle it well.

 

It took my body months to heal and my heart even longer. I never wanted to feel the pain of losing a baby I’d dreamed of and prayed for. Nobody ever does.

 

But I let my heart lead the way. I knew that I would feel it if we were meant to try again, if we were meant to move towards fostering or adoption…whatever our future would look like. And my heart wanted to try again.

 

Not to erase the pain and heartbreak. Not to lessen the loss that Ryan and I felt. But because I felt it.

 

I don’t know how else to explain it.

 

Now, I don’t know what this next chapter is going to look like. We have discussed going back to IUIs and medical intervention. We’ve discussed seeing if nature is on our side. I’m still unsure what this will look like but I know it isn’t the end of this journey just yet.

 

With a lot more love, and hopes, and prayers…we will eventually have the little family we always dream about.

 

Love,

Chelsea